Rupture

We were one

That’s how we started

One being

Fusion

I was literally part of your body

I grew inside of you

You nurtured me

Biologically

Physiologically

Materialistically

But I needed more

I need more

I need an emotional connection

I need you to react empathically to me

I need you to love and respect me

I need to share my inner self with you

And I need you to see me, to hold me, to love me

But you can’t do that

You can’t give what you don’t have

You don’t know what you don’t know

You don’t see the world that was kept from you

You can’t join me there because you don’t know how

You can’t nurture me because you don’t have the blueprint

But it hurts

It hurts not to be seen

It hurts not be to heard

It hurts not be to comforted

It hurts not be to nurtured

I can’t talk to you every week anymore

I can’t keep feeling resentful and angry at you

I can’t keep feeling frustrated

At the lack of emotional engagement

At the silly attacks

At the superficial conversations

It does matter that you don’t respect Sacha’s wish

Saying “she” shows a profound lack of respect

I know that you can’t respect us because nobody respected you

I know that you don’t respect and love yourself

That’s why you can’t respect and love us

I know you’re stuck in your ways

Challenging it would be challenging dad and therefore your entire life style

But I can’t do it anymore.

I need more space

I’ll talk to you once a month from now on

And reassess

Emotional neglect from mom

Emotional abuse from dad

I wish I had never been born