Another World
You were precious to me the day I laid my eyes on you
He should have said
I was told you looked like a caveman the day you were born
He said
I want to know your world, tell me about it
He should have said
“The world seen by Titia”, did he say
Bending his knees to my height, faking sucking his thumb and taking an idiotic look
I’ll protect you, you’re here to learn and grow
He should have said
“Do you know what shameful thing Alicia did?”
Did he say, gleeful at the prospect of publicly humiliating me
Come, daughter, I’ll teach you a skill,
He should have said
“You’ll teach yourself, go away”
He said
Yes, I’ll help you with German
He should have said
“It’s not a time to ask”
He yelled
He should have been curious and accepting of my experience
He was spiteful and shaming
He should have aimed to make my life better
He belittled me to feel a man
He should have loved and cared for me
He couldn’t be bothered, or he tried to hurt me
He should have helped me accepting my adolescent body
He sexualized me and shamed my curves
He should have shown interest in me
He couldn’t care less
He should have rooted for me
He thought all his children were good-for-nothing
He should have bonded with me
He rejected me over and over again
He’s an angry little boy who pretends to be a man
He burns in the flames of his own hell
And drags us into it with him